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Thursday, August 09, 2012
Imma create a new blog :)
But all this will still stay
But all this will still stay
♥, 11:18 PM.
Friday, July 13, 2012
There are plenty of times when I can't help it but to look back, either in comparison or with feeling nostalgic.
I hope you're doing really well. I'm still silently watching over you.
A part of me wants everything then back,
A part of me doesn't want to hold on to the past.
Why do I always make myself so vulnerable to such stuff
I feel speechless and numb,
I'm not angry, probably just.. disappointed,
I don't quite want to see neither speak to him at all.
Times like this, makes me miss then so much :(
I havent spoken to anyone about it yet,
Because,
Back then, I would have you to confide in.
Now, ... I don't..
Sigh.. :'(
I hope you're doing really well. I'm still silently watching over you.
A part of me wants everything then back,
A part of me doesn't want to hold on to the past.
Why do I always make myself so vulnerable to such stuff
I feel speechless and numb,
I'm not angry, probably just.. disappointed,
I don't quite want to see neither speak to him at all.
Times like this, makes me miss then so much :(
I havent spoken to anyone about it yet,
Because,
Back then, I would have you to confide in.
Now, ... I don't..
Sigh.. :'(
♥, 12:31 AM.
I'm running away,
because I'm starting to get a little too vulnerable,
and I don't like me feeling this way, too easily, too quickly.
I'm going to hurt myself,
I need to go away for a while
I need to protect myself
Snap back.
and realize.
I.. feel very scared actually :(
♥, 12:18 AM.
Saturday, June 02, 2012
"Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus"
I really don't seem to understand guys, probably because I've never really let myself liked any before. They are so different from how girls are - the way they act, speak and think. It kinda drives you crazy, very annoying and they seemed bother less most of the times (maybe they aren't, but it seems like they are. I can't help it, especially when girls get sensitive, and over-react/over-think). They change between being hot and cold so easily that I find it difficult to understand or catch up with them. I don't understand most things they do. Even if I try to convince myself with whatever that would probably sound comforting to me, but a part of me still shatters whenever I randomly feel lonely and I need a listening ear or a shoulder to lean on, but he's not here for me.
Heartbreaking, very. The most frustrating part, I don't exactly know how to explain myself. Either do i want to stress him about it. Sucha dilemma. :( Probably I shouldn't expect too much.
I shall stand strong on my own, instead.
I really don't seem to understand guys, probably because I've never really let myself liked any before. They are so different from how girls are - the way they act, speak and think. It kinda drives you crazy, very annoying and they seemed bother less most of the times (maybe they aren't, but it seems like they are. I can't help it, especially when girls get sensitive, and over-react/over-think). They change between being hot and cold so easily that I find it difficult to understand or catch up with them. I don't understand most things they do. Even if I try to convince myself with whatever that would probably sound comforting to me, but a part of me still shatters whenever I randomly feel lonely and I need a listening ear or a shoulder to lean on, but he's not here for me.
Heartbreaking, very. The most frustrating part, I don't exactly know how to explain myself. Either do i want to stress him about it. Sucha dilemma. :( Probably I shouldn't expect too much.
I shall stand strong on my own, instead.
♥, 10:12 PM.
I've pretty much shortlisted the aussie unis for sports sci/physio double degree courses, I guess for now, it's either Gold Coast's Griffith, else Uni of Sunshine Coast. I'm kinda skeptical about the schools and courses, as both of them seem rather... not as popular as the others, of course. But I hope the certification is good comparable to the others higher ranking ones. :) We'll see how it goes, I need to keep my savings up.
♥, 10:00 PM.